yeah ... going to Kampar soon ... 1 hour left

i wish i can sleep well a... wake up so early ... haiz...
i regret that i back KL so early , i thought that i will be more happy when staying in KL , unfortunately that is wrong . I dont even can stop thinking of u ... What should do later ?? Happy to face or what ? Gonna c u soon , but ... I am just a normal human being ... Everyone knows that I Love You , but how ? So what ? Doesn't mean that you are belong to me ? Life acts like a series of movie ... We are just a chracter that GOD in this movie... What is the ending ? I don know ... I know that i still got nothing success ... Why ? why? why !? Why i need to walk such narrow way ?? Yes, I know that i have promised with You , but i have been walking 19 years ... When can i walk to a highway ?? Please la ... At least let me see there is a hope for me ... I am now just walking around in a Night Forest which is dark and silence ... I cant listen anything . Valentine Day ?? Haiz .. i really wish that i can walk with you ... but who will u choose ? What is ur prayer ? Kienbeen really heartless liao .... This Chinese New Year , i totally no feel ... No more feel like i was young ... No more playing ... All relative go bai nian , and i just sitting alone at Hometown... Why ar ? Why ? why ?why ? What can i do now ?? Anyone ? Harlooooo ....
I Love you a .... @.@
Good Luck la kienbeen
Pray hard la
DOn think so much la ... Haiz..

柯建民，你醒了吗？

my mind just full of 'where , when , what , why , which, how ' ... When i awoke , automatically 那件事will flow into my mind ... i don even can sleep well ... haiz ... but i choose to pray and chat with YOU , so that u can lead me ... kienbeen totally blank liao a ... All order to me will just gone suddenly which resulted scold by parents ... T.T
Where r YOU ?
When is the time ?
What can i do ?
Why this happen to me?
Which one would u choose ?
How to stack with u ?

PRAY

fong shao ??

can meh ?? i don know leh ... i really don know wat shud i do... 'Spy' pls tell me la ... It is not so easy leh... ask me why ? more than 3 years leh ... so easy ? i know have to pray and look for the way that GOD give me ... I did .... I really praying for her as well as my future la , of coz ... Haiz ... I am praying hard liao la .... 2009 is a different year for me ... i am sure that ... Thx GOD that giving me such a good challenge ?? am i going overcome it ? PRAY

林峰 - 爱不疚 曲:郑智伟 词:张美贤

收藏在眼眸 常徘徊左右 爱 猜到没有

愉快玩笑後 能全然退後 你 开心就够

这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够

假使讲了 你听到後或会走

这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有

成全 衷心祝福然後就放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由

放手 其实我绝非爱得不够

放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友

已经 已经足够

遥远是宇宙 静静在背後 去看守就够

这种感觉太亲厚 讲一千句也不够

即使一刹有过冲动 挽你手

这种恋爱太罕有 不需真正拥有

成全 多舍不得仍然 是放手

放手 放开所有 彼此更自由

放手 其实我绝非爱得不够

放手 豁出所有 还有这个好友

已经 已经足够

放手 我的牵挂 找不到尽头

放手 期望你幸福甚麽都有

也许 爱很深厚 然而我早看得透

放手 至可拥有

19 Jalan Perisa(don't be influenced)

this is wat i saw when i am doing nothing and missing ... I tried to refresh my memory ... I went back to my primary school this morning- S.J.K (C) YOKE NAM
Look at these primary student , i refreshed back to my young time... I was in this school also - 1c,2c,3e,4e,5e,6e ... This school full with my memory ... Look at these students was so pure and blank ... They do not know what is world doing, what is relationship , what is family , what is friendship... Haiz ... T.T ... If the time can return , i would like to be child ... Don know everything , just play and do homework .... Not like now , my family is bad enough . I am not living in a wealth family or even a happy family . When i was young , i wished i could give the best to this family , but that was just a immature mindset ... Neither relationship nor family , can let me be proud ... In this 19 years , i am just live in empty... My life is just blank as a empty box... There is no success in my life ...

7 days left

Lord ... i am just same as normal as other ppl . What i have , i presented to lord ... Lord , there is only 7 days left . Please lord... give me the ability to study and close to you. As i promised with lord , 2009 is a new life for me to close with you. Satan get lost in 7 ways . Lord lead me to your way . Although that is a narrow way , i am still willing to walk with you. I know that there is no other to success unless follow Jesus , YOU . I am now starting my study , pls lord .. give me the ability so that i can be 'salt and light' ... As i walk with You , you will give me more than i expect ... Lord , You know what i want ... Lord , lead me in my study , my family , my relation with someone , my frienship , and my financial ... pls Lord ...
Lead me on ... I love YOu